It's been just over a week since me and my wife found out that she's pregnant.
I've been living in a cloud since then, a cloud of excitement where it's hard to get to sleep and hard not to think about it. To say I'm excited would be putting it mildly. Finally after 2 years of trying we've hit the jackpot! Although she's only in the 5th week of pregnancy, and we could still easily loose it, I'm determined that we won't, I know we won't. We've been trying for too long for this not to be the real deal.
We're both really excited about it and it's great. We've already had several cliché conversations about baby names. Up to now we've only agreed on a couple, "Leo" and "Isaac". I find her name selection quite horrifying, I mean naming a baby Maisy, or Flora! No, just no. If It was up to me then we'd call him Neo. The sci-fi reference to the Move "The Matrix" puts her off, and also because its totally unconventional. We're finding picking a boy's name much more interesting than picking a girl's.
We've both said we'd prefer to have a boy. I'm not exactly sure why. Maybe its because I think I'd have more in common with him, I'll have been through what he is about to experience. Also there's the worry that your little girl will get raped by some utter bastard. I think there's more of a chance that you're daughter could get raped than there is of your son being a rapist. At least you can control weather or not your son becomes a rapist.
She took another pregnancy test today and the line was very strong. A week ago the line was so faint that you could only see it in the right light. With my wife working at a doctors surgery she'll be able to take regular tests to check that the line isn't getting fainter. If the line gets fainter then your HGC levels are dropping and it's almost certain you're going to loose your baby.
So here I am, a newly expectant father, who knows what emotional journey is to come? I'll record my thoughts and feelings on this blog throughout the pregnancy until the end. If everything goes well then at the end of this I should be posting a photo of my new born baby! What a wonderful thought!
